666villevalo's Journals

Broken Hearts and Lonely Nights (Poem)

Iâ�™m Alone again
Heart Broken

Tears run down my face
And the blood drips

A razorblade in hand
And cuts along my wrist

My arm goes num
My breathing quickens

A drop to the floor
And I lay their dying

No one around to hear me scream
As the pain quickens

Now with only seconds left
The door opens
And I look at you for the last time
Cause you are to late

For I have died,
From a broken heart
And lonely nights.

Christmas Wish (Miyavi/Aoi - The Gazette) || One Shot

I wrote this one a while ago around christmas time 2007 - 2008 something like that ... Hope yea like it ^^

Christmas Wish

It was the night before Christmas and Aoi had just finished a concert and was looking happy on the outside, but on the inside he left sad that the love of his life could not be here with him on Christmas Eve. Although he understood why he still missed him cause he hadnâ�™t seen him in a while. He figured he was busy with his solo music and his band S.K.I.N and other stuff, but in his heart he knew Miyavi should have made time for him especially on Christmas.

About an hour or two after the concert Aoi went home to get ready for Christmas. He walked for a while still thinking about his love Miyavi and how much he missed him after all. As he walked and thought and the more he thought tears started to form in his eyes for the first time in a long time. He just could not get Miyavi off his mind, so all he wanted to was get home and go to sleep.

When he finally got home, he walked straight to bed without changing out of his close and talking off his make up that was already smeared on his face form earlier. All he was trying to do was get through Christmas without heartache, but it might not be that possible.

As Aoi slept he started to think about Miyavi again and this time his heart felt like it ripped into to pieces. All of a sudden he suddenly opened his eyes and sat up quickly. Aoi now couldnâ�™t get to sleep his mind was on the one thing he wanted for Christmas and this year would be different then every other year.

Aoi sat awake for what seemed like an hour or so in the dark just thing bout Miyavi and how much fun they would have had sitting by the fire place and tree opening there presents together, but now all of that was just a dream. Seeing now that he couldnâ�™t still get to sleep he decided to write Miyavi another email. Evan though he just wrote one today.

Dear Miyavi

Itâ�™s about 4:00 Am in the morning now. I had a concert today and well I was hopping you would have been here today, but well your busy too and I donâ�™t blame you for it. Itâ�™s just I love you lots (well you now that I tell you like all the time), but Christmas is the time for being with the ones you love and celebrating Christmas with them. Well what I really mean is that with you itâ�™s like I hardly get to see you and when I do I want to make it special and I thought Christmas would be one of the most specialist time to spend with you, but well what can you do your Miyavi the great and you have things to do too and so you have to make sacrifices some times too and I guess this is oneâ�¦â�¦ I love you and well I miss you lots

Your love XoxoXoxo Aoi

Aoi then sent the email and went back to bed to try to get back to sleep, but it was still impossible. For about three hours Aoi tossed and turned trying to get to sleep, but his mind wouldnâ�™t get off one thing Miyavi. Sending that email made him want to think about Miyavi even more then he was already think bout him.

It was about 7:30 am when Aoi got out of bed and went down stairs to open his fan presents he got last night and the presents from his band members. When Aoi got down the stairs and was about to walk into the living room his face lit up with joy. Right there laying his couch was none other then his love Miyavi wearing nothing but baggy jeans and a Santa hat.

Aoi was so stunned at what he saw that he couldnâ�™t even move to go hug him, so Miyavi got instead and went over to him. â�œMiyavi I just canâ�™t believe that you are actually here. I thought you said that you couldnâ�™t make it.â� â�œWell I told them that Christmas was my favorite time of the year and that last year I didnâ�™t really get to have a Christmas and they said that I could go back home to spend it with my family and yea. Oh and they also told me that I would have to fly back in 2 days to finish recording the album.â� â�œOMG you did that all for me. I canâ�™t believe it. You r the most sweetest and greatest person ever.â�

I then pushed him back onto the couch in a laying position and laid down on top of him. Then I started to kiss him softy on the lips, but he just put his hands on my head to deepen the kiss. I then broke the kiss for a second. â�œOh I almost forgot I have something for you.â� I said and got up off of him and ran to my room.

Now where did I put it? Oh there it is. I then picked it up from the floor and ran back to the living room. â�œHere you go Miyavi.â� I said and handed him the present.

I was going to mail this to him when I had time, but well heâ�™s here now and thatâ�™s all that matter. That is all that I have ever wanted. Miyavi then looked the present and then at me and stared into my eyes and I did the same. At that moment his eyes look as innocent as a childâ�™s, but at the same time showed that he love me so.

He then looked away from me and back at the present and opened it. I watched how he opened. It looked like he opened like it the most valuable this he has ever held in his life. When he was done opening it he look at me and gave me a cut smile and I gave his one back. â�œAoi I love it he so cute and so soft.â� â�œI knew would like it. I took me days to find you the right one.â� â�œOh! But Aoi I didnâ�™t get you anything.â� â�œMeev it doesnâ�™t matter, you just being here is the best present I could ever get from you. Unlike last year.â� I said and took the stuffed cat from his hands and put it on the floor and pushed him back into a laying position and laid on top of him again.

This time I didnâ�™t kiss him this time he kissed me, but it wasnâ�™t a regular kiss. It was the best kiss that I had ever had. It was so passionate; it felt like I could have kissed his for hours or days for that matter. I never wanted to end the kiss, but Miyavi had other ideas in this head. He then started to kiss me neck just behind my right ear and it sent shivers down spine and it made me moan with pleaser.

As he was kissing my neck and sucking on my ear all I could think about how perfect this Christmas was and that I finally got my wish to come true after all.

Then he stopped kissing me and his eyes met mine and for the longest time we just stared into each otherâ�™s eyes without saying a word until I broke the silences.

"Meev I love you." "Yes I love you too Aoi.

From this day and everyday after this things got better. We made time for each other and I didnâ�™t feel lonely any more when He had to go away, or I had to leave him, because I knew he would always love me and he knew that I would still always love him.

~Fin~

Beneath The Starz.... || Shinya and Kyo (Dir en Grey) || One Shot

Kyo and I laid underneath the stars, on a warm silent summer night. Kyoâ�™s arms were wrapped around me and everything felt so right. Kyo kissed me sweet and softly and I felt Kyoâ�™s warm touch against my lips, and he help me feel protected and safe under the sweet night sky rush.

We laid beneath the stars for what felt like hours without a care in the world. Nothing was going to ruin this perfect picture moment beneath the stars.

Just when everything was perfect, and you seemed so delicately sweet, a rush of wind comes past me as it was swept beneath my feet.

As the stars above us twinkled and the air around us felt warm. He held me tight and I hugged back. As I hugged back it felt like our bodies fit together like two perfect puzzle pieces and Kyo was squeezing tighter now not wanting to let me. It felt good to be among my one true loves arms and touch.

It had been along time since we had anytime alone. With the interview, touring and being on the road a lot. This was defiantly my favorite moment, time, hour and day. I never wanted this feeling to end.

Then I felt your touch loosen a little from the tight hug that you had me in and I looked over at you only to find that you had fallen asleep. Next I took my hand and caressed your check. Your skin felt so soft and delicate under my touch. So I snuggled in closer to you and wrapped my arms around you like you had yours, but I never want this night to end. Just you and me laying beneath the stars.

~Fin~

My New Obsession

My new obsession is Jrock music... I still have my Tokio Hotel obsession, but along side that i'm obsessed with Miyavi (Meev) , Gazette and alot of other Jrock bands and singers, but my FAVOURITE it Miyavi (Meev).

GOD he can play the guitar so sexc, and be so talented at the same time..... Me love him so much TEE-HEE =P

My Love For My Brother Is More Then Just Doing It [One Shot] Bill/Tom

For as long as I can remember Tom and I have been close as brothers. Like you can call it brotherly love. Yes brotherly love. But by know it has gotten to be more then that. I know it's weird, but I love him with all my heart and I know that he love me the same as I love him.

Well he has told me that he loves me about a million times that he doesn't even have to say it anymore, because our love is more then just saying it. I know, I know it's not possible for brothers to be in love the way we are, but we just are. What we share is more then others can imagine.

We are at peace with each other sharing the same feelings, emotions and thought as we are now and grow older together. When I'm sad he's sad. When I'm happy he's happy. When I'm hurt he's hurt, that's the way I like it and I wouldn't change it for the world.

For now Tom is like God to me and I look up to him for everything. Yes everything. Where I go he goes. When I'm sick he's there to make me feel better. When I'm lost he always knows how to bring me back down to earth.

That's why my love for my brother is more then just doing it. Doing it is just one way that I know how to show him that I love him, but still there's more to it then just that. There's being there when he needs me the most, or I need him.

There's being a little brother the best that I can be, but most of the time I think that it's just weird that he finds himself the older brother just because he was born 10 minutes earlier then me, but what the heck. Being the little bother can have it avenges some times, but that's ok because I know in the end very thing is going to get even better like it has.

There are going to ups and downs. There are going to be surprise. Not just on special day of the year, but when you least expect it. Because that the fun of being in love with not just any guy. But your brother, your true love and your soul mate for as long as you want.

Well one thing is for sure that what ever the future brings we will always b as one. Like I said my love for my brother is more then just doing it.

Liam Styles Chang Didn't Make it Into The Top 10 on Canadian Idol :'(

OMG :'( Liam Styles Chang didn't make it into the top 10 on Canadian Idol....

I was just watching Canadian Idol just to see him and he didn't make it in.... :'( ... I voted for him every night fro about 2 hours straight .... I really wanted him to get in so I could still see him, But oh well what can you do People that vote for their favs on Canadian Idol don't know what good talent is..... They think everyone is better then Laim was..., but he was the best out of all of them.... :'(

Oh and I think that the girl named Montana should of stayed to, but what can you do..... Canada sucks with voting for voting for things like that... Well any way it doesn't matter 2 much... Well I'm still gonna like him even thought he's off Canadian Idol...... :'(

Messed Up (Bill/Tom) [Short 2 Chpt FF]

Chapter 1

Iâ�™m standing here in the bathroom of a hotel room. Now staring at an expressionless face. I was now trying to hold back the tears that were trying to escape, but it was no use they just fell anyway. When I heard a nock on the door.

â�œBill come on you have been in there for about an hour and I have to use the bathroom.â� â�œGo away.â� â�œBill whatâ�™s wrong?â� â�œNothing just go way.â� â�œ Bill seriously is something wrong you sound really upset.â� â�œWhat did I just say a sec ago, go away.â�

I couldnâ�™t take it anymore. I wasnâ�™t really made at Tom. I was just pissed about everything lately. I need to just get away. Take some time off to be myself not what they wanted me to be. I know David and the rest for them are trying to do what is best for me, but I donâ�™t feel like Iâ�™m me. Not ever David came into the picture. He never let me just be me. He would always make me do playbacks, even though some times I would of like to sing my old stuff. He wouldnâ�™t even let me do that. Since my voice changed it has been my new stuff never letting me do what I wanted to do.

Well Iâ�™m tired of putting on fake smiles to hind everything. I tired of trying to lips sing. Iâ�™m tired of not doing what I want. Iâ�™m even really pissed of at the world. Now everything that once was good in my life is now gone.

â�œCome Bill please open up.â� â�œNo!â� â�œFine all go over to George and Gustavâ�™s hotel room. They will let me uses there bathroom. They arenâ�™t mean like you.â� â�œGood go uses their bathroom. I donâ�™t care.â�

He knows Iâ�™m in one of my moods. He doesnâ�™t have to make a big deal about it. I just didnâ�™t want him to see me like this. No one see me like this. Even though he know that I just get pissy a lot and moody, but I still donâ�™t let him see me like this.

Now tears down my cheek, marks on my left arm and a frown on my face rather then a smile. Now thatâ�™s the way I like it and have always.

If he ever saw me like this. Well if anyone saw me like this it would destroy everything. They would be worried about me. They would want to help me. They would ask me questions. Lots of question and Iâ�™m not ready to answer any question they got unless it has nothing to do with me and my little tiny problem that I have. Well my problem is not that tiny, but it is still little and I want it to stay that way.

I then after a few minutes of trying to get Bill to let me use the washroom. I couldnâ�™t take it anymore, so I went over to Georgeâ�™s and Gustavâ�™s hotel room.

â�œHey George can I use your bath room.â� â�œYeaâ� â�œ What know is Bill in one of his pissy moods today again?â� â�œYea this time he wont let me use the bathroomâ�¦. Oh and he keep telling me to go away.â� â�œWow he most be really messed up if he is doing that and tells you to go away.â� â�œWell I think he need help, but every time I ask him whatâ�™s wrong and stuff he gets all made and in a pissy mood.

I then picked up a metal object that was sitting on the counter and paused and looked at it for a long time before I finally put it to my arm and made a mark. As I did that all the anger that I was feeling slowly went away. After about a few marks made on my arm by the metal thing in my hand I was not angry any more. It felt like I could go on with the day and be ok.

It was about 2 years ago that I started to do this. Just around that same time as I got into my pissy moods. People have been saying that I should get help, but Iâ�™m fine once I cute myself to make me forget why I was angry for a while.

Chapter 2

â�œHey bill Can I talk to for a bit.â� â�œIf its about earlier then no.â� â�œ Bill please, you need help. You canâ�™t keep going around like that you know. One of these days David is going to find out and you can get in big shit.â� â�œI donâ�™t care. I just want to be left alone for the rest of my life to rote in hell.â� â�œBill donâ�™t say that, you have a lot of people that care about you and you have one that loves you.â�

I then rapped my arms around him and held him close to me. He then started to cry, but I couldnâ�™t help but wonder why. I have never really seen him like that since. Well never. He looked so helpless. Like he was lost forever. He looked like a sad angel that fell from heaven and canâ�™t go back until it has healed it self. I know that is just a little extreme, but well Bill like this is well extreme enough.

I then moved a little so that I could his face. He was still crying and now there was a big wet tearstain on my shirt from Bill crying. He then noticed that I was looking at him and he looked up at me and gave me a small helpless little sad smile. Thatâ�™s when I knew that he might have a chance in getting better if he allows me to help him.

â�œHey Tom, I have something to tell. I donâ�™t really know how to tell you this. Well then I will show you. I hope you donâ�™t freak out when I show you what I did to myself, but I had to it was the only way.â�

I then moved a little and moved my arm from under him and put it up to him to show him, what I was talking about.

â�œOMG. Bill why. How could you do that to yourself.â� â�œI had to Tom. It was the only way that I could go on living each the way that I did. No one allowed me to be myself.â� â�œBill I allowed you to be you. I never took advantage of you. I cared about you for as long as. Well since we were about five. You are my bother and I love you with all my heart.â� â�œI know Tom you werenâ�™t the problem. You were always so good to me.â� â�œThen why did you have to go and do that for?â� â�œ I did it because everything was getting so stressful. I never felt like myself. Everything lately was just so heard on me that I just broke down and well did this to myself.â� â�œ You could of just talk to me and I could of help you before you started this. You could of just talked to David about the singing thing. He would of listened.â� â�œNo he never listens. Not just that. I have tried to talk to him about it and he said he was to busy and that I would have to come back later to talk to him when he had time to talk to me. So you see, I never got the respect that I devised from him and the rest of them and another thing is that I couldnâ�™t take all those goddamn fans. Those poser wannabeâ�™s, people that think that they know me as well as i9 know my own self.â� â�œSo you could of just came and talked to me. You know that I would of listened.â�

And with that said I went back to hugging him and telling him that he was the best person ever. That he meant the world to be and everyone that cared about him.

Then after about a few minutes of saying what I was saying and hugging him he kissed me on the lips and gave me another smile. Now this smile was different. It wasnâ�™t sad. It wasnâ�™t even fake.

â�œHey Bill why did you kisses?â� â�œ I kissed you because I can and I want to you. You have been so nice to me in my time of need and yea I love you. â�œWhat did you say to me?â� â�œI said that I love you.â� â�œ Thank Bill I love you too.â�

~ Fin ~

Thought Can Be Suicidal (Bill/Tom) Chpt. 10 Final Chpt

Chapter 10

Later this afternoon as people came and go like any other day at the hospital my brother couldnâ�™t take it anymore. For some reason he felt like this was not a good way to have privacy. He even said that yesterday was ok, but it could have been better.

So that afternoon we left the hospital room and walked out. We just didnâ�™t walk out. We walked out hand in hand not caring who saw us because we were in love.

â�œHey love what do you want to do today? We can do anything you want,â� I said as we were walking back to the hotel. â�œI donâ�™t know I just feel like finding a nice quite dark place and being alone with you,â� my brother said, as he pushed me up agents a big tree and started to kiss make out with me in front of all the people walking by.

I knew this was sort of wrong. Two guys making out outside in front of people. Let alone people we didnâ�™t know. I thought that he want to go back to the hotel room, but I guess he couldnâ�™t wait.

I then started to kiss him back and he did the same. When he was done with what he was doing he took my hand in his again and we walked back to the hotel to have some proper fun.

When we finally got back to the hotel and into our hotel room my brother grabbed me and pushed me flat onto the stiff hotel bed and crawled on top of me. My brother then pulled off my shirt.

â�œNow this is my kind of fun,â� my brother said as he looked into my eyes as a cute little smile came to his face and I could finally see that he was happy for once in along time.

The last time that I had ever seen him happy was when he was 14. As thing got better he got worse. I think he never knew that I knew that something was wrong, but I guess it was better that way. Cause look at him now heâ�™s smiling, happy and having fun.

â�œYes this is my kind of fun too,â� I said, as I looked him in the eyes too.

He then kissed me on the lip again, but this time he deepened the kiss by putting both this hands on each side of my head that was now propped up agents a pillow.

I then left his tongue run quickly along my bottom lip before I opened my mouth allowing him entrance. His tongue felt so good. The feel of the cool cold metal of his tongue piercing agents my own tongue sent a small shiver down my back and I let out another quiet moan.

I then took my hands and put slide then underneath his shirt and ran my hand up my brotherâ�™s back as he kept kissing and sucking on my tongue.

I squirmed a little pulling away to take a breath and have a second to comedown. I knew my lips were red from kissing, but I didn't care. Even my brother seemed to not care either. He just kept on trying to kiss me even though I need a sec.

I then started to moan in between kisses, enjoying the tenderness that my brother was showing. I loved times like this when my brother was in control, but loving and gentle at the same time.

My brother then realized that he was still wearing his own shirt, so he took off his shirt and flung it across the room.

â�œNow thatâ�™s better. Just the way I like it. Bear skin to bear skin,â� he said as he went back to his kissing me. â�œSame here,â� I said in a loving cute way that made him stop kissing me and smile at me for a sec before the kissing began again.

He then stopped kissing me on the lips and made his way to my neck and started to bit and kiss at my neck. As he was doing that I let out even another moan. This time is was a louder much deeper moan.

I wanted to tell my brother that this was perfect, together, like two matching puzzle pieces. I kept my mouth shut not wanting break the good moment, except for a few moans here and there. I really didn't want my brother to think that I was too sentimental or something. I then closed his eyes as I felt my brothers fingers fumble with my belt buckle.

Once my belts had been ripped off and thrown onto the ground, I quickly tugged at my brotherâ�™s belt. When I finally got it off of him, I dropped it on the floor. He then got up from off me and took his pant off all the way. As I did the same.

He then just stood there starring at me. Moving his eyes up and down looking at me all over. He looked like he really liked what he saw. He then stopped looking at me after about a min or so and got back in his place right on top of me and kissed me on the lips once again. But this time he was biting at my bottom lip playing around with me lip rings.

Then my brother then let out a loud purr and kept on playing with my lip rings.

After a few seconds he stopped. â�œYour beautiful,â� he whispered into my ear as he started to nibble and bite at my ear. â�œSo are you,â� I said just before I let out a quite moan again.

He then moved his hand down my chest and stomach to my erection. Then he started rubbing my erection through the black material of my boxers. I then let out a deep moan and bucked my hips.

Omfg! That feels so good. I never thought that anything like this would ever feel so good. I know that lost of girls have done that before, but I never thought that his touch would be greatest of any touch that I have ever felt before.

He then started to suck at my neck for along time trying to make a mark that would last forever. As he was doing that I let out a few moans and dug my nails into his back and he let out a low growl.

He then moved his hand up a little and slipped it into my boxers to get a better touch. His touch felt cold at first. Then I could feel my erection getting harder.

He then took his hand out and stopped sucking on my neck and gave me a very passionate kiss on the lips. He then lied complete they on me so that our erections were touching. I then rapped my arms around him and he snuggled up tight to me and moved so that he could see my face. I then took a good long look at him without saying a word. A few seconds later I broke the silence.

â�œIch liebe dich,â� I said as he looked up at me and smiled. â�œYes ich liebe dich,â� he said as his head went back down and he curled up close to me. Moved his head closer to mine and I held him until he fell asleep.

~ Fin ~

Thought Can Be Suicidal (Bill/Tom) Chpt. 9

Chapter 9

â�œOh here it is,â� I said as I sat back down on the chair beside my brotherâ�™s bed. He then turned and looked at me and I handed him the note. He then opened it and read it out load slowly and carefully, as I sat there looking at him and just smiling.

Dear, My Dearest brother

Ich Liebe Dich, forever and for always.

He then looked at me right in the eyes and started to cry. I then got up off of the chair and sat down on the bed beside my brother. Then I rapped my arms around him and held him tight until he cried him self to sleep right here in my arms.

He looked like a little angel from heaven, with his frail body and his angel like face. I few minutes later a nurse walked in to see how my brother was doing.

â�œOh sorry to bother you, all come back in a few minutes,â� she said as she saw what was going on and walked out of the room. I then lead over as much as I could still holding him as he slept in my arms and kissed him on the lips. He then started to kiss me back and his eyes opened and looked right at me for second only to close again. Then he took his left hand and started to run hi fingers through my hair. I then stopped kissing him and moved me head over and started to kiss his neck and he let a quite moan.

â�œHey your awake love,â� I said as he opened his eyes and kissed me on the lips.

â�œHey I was just wondering, when the hell Iâ�™m I aloud out of here so we can go back to the hotel,â� he said Just before I bite down on his neck and me let out another quite moan. â�œI donâ�™t know, Iâ�™ll go ask,â� I said as I let go of him and got up off of the bed. As I was walking to the door I turned around and gave in a little confused look and walked out of the room and down the hall to the elevator.

OMG! Heâ�™ got him memory back. Thatâ�™s why he knew about the hotel. Maybe that it why he kissed me then? I thought as I got into the elevator and push main floor.

As the elevator stopped at the main floor I got out and walked to the main desk.
â�œUmmmâ�¦. excuse me miss, I was just wondering when can my brother in room 483 can leave the hospital. He wanted not know.â� I said trying not to sound stupid. â�œOh youâ�™re talking about Mr. Kaulitz in room 483. He can leave some time this afternoon,â� she said as I gave here a little smile and walked back to the elevator.

As I got back to the second floor I got out and walked back to my brotherâ�™s room and sat back down on the bed and pulled my brother into another hug. â�œWhat did she say,â� he asked as he looked at me. â�œShe said you can leave anytime this afternoon love,â� I said as my brother was looking at me right in the eyes and I was looking him right in the eyes too.

Thought Can Be Suicidal (Bill/Tom) Chpt. 8

Chapter 8

As I got out of the hotel room and down the hall to where the elevator was I kneeled onto the floor and started to cry.

All of this was now starting to really get to me. I never thought that something like this would ever happenâ�¦ Well at lest happened to my bother of all people that this could have happened too. What if this happened to me and I was that one with the memory loss. No I could never bare the thought of that. But as I was kneeled on the floor cry it was useless. That thought kept going over and over in my head until I heard some oneâ�™s door opening and I got up off the floor.

I quickly pressed the down bottom for the elevator and went inside. It was good that the door closed before that person got here, or they would see that I have been cry.

As the elevator got to the bottom stairs I got out and walked outside of the hotel building and started walking up the street to the hospital where my bother was staying.

I walk right in and passed the front desk to the elevator and up to the second floor. The as the elevator got to the second floor I got out and walked to the room were my brotherâ�¦. Well what was left of him was in.

As I got to the room I opened the door and found my brother awake and looking at me with the look of innocence and a smile. So I walked over and sat in the chair beside his bed. â�œHey how do you feel today,â� I ask my brother as he turn his head to look at me. â�œOk I guess, but Iâ�™ve been better,â� my brother said to me as I quickly looked away from him and looked at the floor instead. He then took his hand and reached over and lifted my head up with his right hand, so I was looking at him.

â�œHey Tom I was just wondering about that note you wrote me,â� I said as the smile on my face went way. â�œWhatâ�™s wrong?â� I said just as he leaned in and kissed me on the lips. I then pushed him way. â�œWTH!â� I said a little too loud that a nurse walked in to see what was going on.

â�œNothing, everything is fine. Were just talking,â� I said to the nurse as she stood in the doorway looking at as. He then started laughing as the nurse walked out of the room. â�œWhy are you laughing and why did you just kiss me for. I kissed you because I can.â� He said a little jokingly. â�œWell then I can kiss you too,â� I said as I leaned in and kissed my brother on the lips and he kissed me back.

Then I got up off the chair that I was just sitting on and climb on top of the bed that my brother was on, so I was right on top of him. He then smiled at me and was just about to say something, when I put a finger to his lips to stop him from saying anything.

I then removed my figure and put my lips back where they were a few seconds ago. He then let out a low moan and took my lips off his and stared at him for a long time. "Hey what was it you were going to say before I stopped you love,â� I said as I started to get a weird feeling all over my body. â�œ I canâ�™t remember at the moment,â� he said as he took my hat off of my head and throw it on the floor and took my hair out of a pony tail. â�œ Hey love I was just wondering, does anything that I wrote on the note make any sense to you at all,â� I said in a loving kind of way. â�œYea! Some of it makes some kind of sense. Like when you said Ich Liebe Dich. I never thought you would ever say something like that to me ever,â� he said as I kissed his neck and he let out a little quite moan as a bit down a little.

I then stopped kissing his neck and got up off of then bed that he was lying in and kneeled down by the bed and looked through my bag for a piece of paper that I had wrote on just before I came here.